“And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be” - Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
that’s why i love books. cause at 1 AM in the morning, when you’re trying to sort through all the chaos that has finally caught up to you, a single quote drifts into your mind and sorts it out for you. just the fact that another person’s words can be so translatable to your own situation is really amazing. it’s calming to know that someone else has had these same thoughts and has gone through what you’ve gone through, maybe not exactly but at least the gist of it.
recently, i’ve been pretty sad. i know i’m lucky. i know i’m blessed. and so i feel guilty for having these, i guess, unwarranted feelings.
it’s really unnerving how things can change so quickly. in the past few months, i’ve come to the ground-breaking discovery that you can’t predict what’s going to happen. gasp. i know. shocking.
i know my life is changing, and it will continue to change. maybe this is just a rut and i’m heading back up. or maybe this is just halfway down to the real bottom. but i think i’m not so pessimistic as to believe that things won’t get better. i’m at least driven by the hope that everything is in cause of betterment.